READ MY LIPS.

rang ai gu ding xia lai, wo bu hui yong yuan qing chun ke ai
wo de mei li yao ni de wen rou, ba wo bao liu xia lai
rang ai gu ding xia lai, wo he ni, bu yao bu yao fen kai
wo bu ai ni zai yi zai cai pai, wo bu shi mei ci shi lian hou, dou neng cong xin zai lai

haha. doubt anyone unclose to me would know tt song. couldnt find the damned chinese lyrics so i had to type in it hanyu pinyin.

pretty emotional post, so click the X on top to save you fro boredom.

anyways, yingting+sweeyim, im fine lah.. at least, i think i am. haha. smile. :)
maybe the stupidest thing to do will be to write the following, bt i have to let it out right?
cam: sorry for being unavail earlier on. things arent exactly gng on well for me you see. love.

gabriel: 1 year already.. there've been good times and also the bad. you've made me doubt this r/s bt also made me feel like a lucky lucky girl. sometimes, i could jst look at you and smile all day. sometimes, i jst wanna be on my own. i complain about having too little time w you, bt maybe, all these complaining has taught me to stop making noise and learn to make myself happy being on my own. a part of me wants to be problem-less, bt a larger portion of me wants you in my arms. tell me what to do?

im a lucky girl, i really am. with so many people loving me.. the sister whom i didnt grip hold on few years back, now the guy who's practically family to me. bt i jst dont know how to cherish them. i cant! my heart doesnt seem to allow me the cherish these people. how how how?
love guru where are you?? i'll give u all the soons ive got..