conversation.

[Z] relationship things really sucks
[A] YES TOTALLY
[A] the stupid things is
[A] you know you will get hurt in the end
[A] but still go and do it
[A] go and fall deeper
[Z] HOPING that it will turn out the other way
[A] yes
[Z] but......
[Z] HAHAHAHA
[A] humans really damn fan jian sia
[Z] ^5
[A] SUPER fan jian
[A] 5 5 5 5 5
[Z] to fan jian is to be human

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better.

Cut this phrase out of some randon person's page; i hope it's fine.

and i cut this out from YT (yeah i was too bored/ feeling too nostalgic i went reading up the older posts) who cut it out from here:

There’s a moment in life where you can’t recover any more from another break-up. And even if this person bugs you sixty percent of the time, well you still can’t live without him. And even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right in your face, well you love his sneezes more than anyone else’s kisses.

Sidenote; this cough is killing me.

EDIT:
Tired, but the cough woke me up. Wah cannot tahan man. very painful.

My conversations with a couple of friends over the past 2 days led me to think of this.

Is it ok to change for someone? Would a smoker stop smoking because the girl he likes disapproves of it? Would a girl go against family restrictions and hang till late, just because the guy she likes is a night-life person? Would YOU change in any way to make someone happy/favour you?

If changing in these ways will get you who you're going after, doesnt that mean that she/he is being with someone BUT you already? I duno if i'm making sense now, i'm just totally speaking from my mind.

I've changed since last June, but not to favour someone. It was more of a growing up change, a change that happened without me knowing/trying.

Sometimes, changing can get you what you want. But more often than not, changing yourself cannot change a person's feelings for you. So why bother. Just be yourself.

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Town-ed with YT yesterday, with plans to catch Step Up 2 but the tickets were all snapped up everywhere.

So we ended up meeting Edwin, Jie and his friend Angela for dinner at Paragon. Javier joined us for abit and returned to work. Been long since we last hung together, since things have changed. Felt/feels good to still have these guys for friends man.
Jalan-ed, then sat by Spinelli's to wait for Javier to knock off.

Yingting brought her new camera today and SAVED THE VIRGIN SHOT FOR US. Her new cam's damn shiok la. Take pictures until very happy. Angela had with her her new cam too, bought also at the IT fair, and it also acts as an MP3/MP4 player. how cool is that.

The woman then came over to get stuff, play DS and chill. It's always good to be doing such stuff with her, even when it's doing nothing. We went to the pasar malam before heading home and the auntie asked if we were sisters. Ha. We know who's the prettier one laa. haha joke! I love her so much i think i'll die without her man.
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i love my skirt very much! heh. super feminine pls.
YT, me and Angela. She's so petite you wouldn't be able to guess her age.
Edwin. can never get a candid photo of him cos he's such a poser (pun intended)
Jie, trying to wear YT's watch, which is obviously too small for his wrist.
And finally Javier knocked off.
And we cam-whored. Been long since i/we did this together.
YT's cool camera can edit this photo..
to something like this..
and this. koolzxzx

After everything/anythng, you're still gonna be the one i'll hold dearest to my heart. Quarrels/misunderstandings might happen but when it all goes away you know it's still you that matters the most.


I think i should try getting back to sleep. Really super tired. It's the mid of the 2nd week of the hols already I've been such a bum! Any jobs to intro or not?

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passerby: yeah it's not a bad thing being single. Being single and attached have both their pros and cons. heh.
Jensen's student: Thank you. I'm being a happier person already! haha
stranger: point taken. those are the REALLY big problems that i don't wanna think about now man. haha.
不懂啦: I KNOW WHO YOU ARE. HAHA. you are just as fan jian man :D