We used to bitch about girls' school bimbos.

No offense to girls' school friends/people reading; it's just a random thought that came to my head suddenly. I've met girls from girls' schools who are really nice. (:

Was just amazing myself with how things can change/have changed so drastically. One day, someone could be your life and you guys could be sharing with one another every single detail of each other's lives, and the next, that same person could just be a stranger to you. Someone else takes over your place, and you find yourself wincing at the thought of them doing what you used to do together. Then slowly, you make yourself move on and wonder who will be the next to come by and be that significant guy (all over again). And the cycle goes on..

Yesterday i went back to Amara, and surprisingly everyone had heard of the breakup and were asking what happened. This certain colleague made me feel more sorry for myself than i've ever been.

"i really pity you, two times kena bastard"

I'd never thought of it that way before, and those words kinda stung and made me feel rather pathetic for a minute.

Sure, i feel lucky at times to be able to have dated some really nice people, to have had stories to tell my friends of. But in the end these people who come into my life always leave. Why doesn't anyone ever stay? Maybe it's time i reflected on how i've been handling my relationships. Guy 1 left because he felt i wasnt giving him enough time and attention and eventually went to know someone else. Guy 2 felt i was too nice and giving. Do this wrong, do that also wrong. Bah. you can never please everyone, can you.

I've ever given my all and more, and i don't think i'd be able to do that again. It never gets reciprocated anyway. So why not just wait and be pampered. HA. Like i'll ever be able to become someone like that. I'll still be the same foolish, soft-hearted person in the end.

So, who's gonna come and go next?