Memories

Gone might be the days when we used to sit at the street soccer court till late, play around with our ice creams, have indomie late at night in front of the tv, watch movie etc, but these wonderful memories will always stay etched in my heart.

I was thinking yesterday that, even though now he's gonna be having new memories with another girl, at least we did have some of the best times of our lives. We were something special to each other. He was never just another boyfriend to me. never was, never will be.

Christine said it's all in the mind whether i wanna stop myself from being so miserable or not. I wont let the good old times stop rolling into my mind every morning, i'll try to smile at those thoughts, but i'll try not to think of what always makes me unhappy, the fact that he's got another girl already. Thanks for talking so much to get that into my head.

Though all i have of him now is that minimal, i should cherish and make the best of it ya. I might not mean anything to him anymore, but he still matters a whole lot to me. i could just give w/o expecting anything back, as long as he allows so. It's pathetic i know, i feel sad making myself like this. ha. but all these just so that we could still be friends and that he'll be happy.

Today's his last duty at scdf already. Much as coming out of NS is a good thing, part of me wished he still had to stay in so he wouldnt change, cos i dont know what will happen after this, he'll start on a new life and prolly not have time to even have small chats with me.
i enjoyed having a fireman boyfriend alot, it was fun learning about the fires he fought and visiting the fire stn. Making a mark on his fire jacket, visiting him at the fire post, these pasts are all love.
Happy last duty nigel.