READ MY LIPS.

Just got back from work, Amara's first wedding dinner since CNY.

Much as weddings are happy occasions, i dont like them now. Dont like seeing happy couples, dont like the love songs playing in the background, dont like the bride and groom.

Felt very down today. Many thoughts filled my mind, thoughts of us, thoughts of him and his new r/s, thoughts of tomorrow, thoughts of nigel.
Been missing you terribly today baby.

It's such an awful feeling to be missing someone when he is in the arms of another. Many songs seem to talk about us, so many of them. Sometimes i wish i could just find someone and forget about you. But what we had seems so special and there are so much memories, that i can't bear to just let them fade into the back of my head.

I feel thankful at times when you show concern, when you talk as if you care. Although i dont belong to you anymore, that little argument we had a couple of days ago seemed to bring me back to the past.

Emo-shit aside, Yingting worked at Amara today! What she learnt and did today really exceded my expectations, seriously. She learnt so much more than i did on my first day of work la. Seriously made my jaw drop. Imagine my yingting using a serving gear portioning rice to the guests. Wa seh.

So tired now. zzz. Pray tomorrow will go on fine. Nights all.