READ MY LIPS.

Today, i wished that i could just live my life in my imaginations. Haha. Life would be beautiful then. So beautiful.

In my imagination we would still be happily together, doing what we used to do. Drinking, playing, trying something new, etc. Maybe in my imagination it should be so perfect that we would not quarrel, but then again, there'd be no fun in a peaceful r/s right. haha.. There are still so many things we said we'd do together, all still not done.

But at times, i dare not imagine too far, cos when you snap back to reality, none of those thoughts are ever gonna happen again. So i wish i wont imagine so much, cos if i dont think of it, maybe something will happen unexpectedly. haha. My words are so ironic.

Today was a very happy day! right? :) haaha.
I dare not wish on anything anymore,neither do i dare to think too deep into the treatment i'm receiving now. I'll just cherish what is around.

I just got a testimonial from vivien, felt so touched when i read it la. Though we never really talked the entire year i was with nigel, she still remembers me and could say such sweet things. I really miss Nigel's family la. It was felt so comfortable there. Attending her ROM is one sweet memory i wont forget. It was one day i felt like a part of another family apart from my own sia. Taking family photo with them and such. Now i guess i merely ruined the pictures cos in the future when they look back on the photos that girl in the picture wouldnt be nigel's girl anymore. haha. I should go get that picture developed soon. ahhh.

Accompanied stefanie to do her JAE appeal exercise today, really hope to see her in tp. Played a little of tennis with lecia! been like more than a year since i last held a racket. Lunched at Mac w Stefanie, and we talked quite abit. It's been a long time since me and steffie last had a chat tgt, just the 2 of us.
Had dinner at Gelare with christine today, talked quite abit. I feel so attached to her la. haha. We went to the Esplanade and were in time for this mini concert by a local band. It was nice, and somehow brought me back to the time when i was with nigel. There was an immediate ache in the heart and i missed him terribly.
Went to sit by the open space after the concert, and christine took like a million pictures of herself. Her lousy eyes couldnt take the flash coming from her phone-camera and she couldnt stop tearing. ahaha. LOUSY GIRL. heh. Love the heart-to-heart chats with her. Thanks babe :)

Gonna take my typhoid jab tmr followed by this test at the environment building or smth. zzz.
Nights people.

Our little secret, darling. :)